Soldier On! w/Leroy Garrett   — Occasional Essays


Essay 175 (6-12-07)

KEEPING IN TOUCH (4)

We made our move to The Vintage on June 1 through the backbreaking kindness of several of our friends. Verizon said they would transfer our phone service (same number) by June 4, which they did, and the online service by June 5, which they did not do. In response to my inquiries I was told I would have to wait until June 22. I’ve tried being the proverbial squeaky wheel, but to no avail. At this writing June 22 is still ten days away. I will post this as soon as I am connected. (Ron’s NOTE: Now Verizon is saying July 6 will be the install date. We shall see!)

  We have gone from six rooms and two and one-half baths to two rooms and one bath. We are first on the list for three rooms and two baths, but we are making do so well with what we have that we may opt to stay where we are. One resident here said it well: “We went from rooms we hardly ever used to common sense living.” Like the Japanese who have small furniture in small homes, we are learning to utilize every square foot -- such as using the top of the microwave and refrigerator as if they were shelves.

  I began staking out my walking route the first morning I was here. It takes me around a vast hospital complex, including walking below the window of the room in ICU where our daughter Phoebe died on April 11. That moment becomes part of my morning prayer, “God, be merciful to Phoebe and to us all.” I am thankful that all those months in the hospital, including being on dialysis, are over for her.

  I must be the only resident who goes walking, or is even able to be that active, and yet I am next to the oldest of the 103 residents. There is a 95- year old in this facility somewhere I am told, a woman of course -- the women outnumber the men ten to one. But what surprised me is that of the 100 units in this tower, 97 are occupied by singles. There are only two other couples. Perhaps that is because couples usually manage to keep on with housekeeping until one of them is gone.

  We take some meals here, while it is cafeteria style (some go through line with walkers), there is table service, and we dine on linen table cloths and have linen napkins. But there is little conversation. One morning I found myself looking around at those who “make it for breakfast” and the poet’s description of “the last leaves on the tree” seemed apt. They appear to be waiting to die. And I wondered with what hope. Perhaps no more nor no less than when they were younger.

  I recalled an essay I once did on “A Wheelchair Church,” which the Christian Standard chose to reprint. It was inspired by a visit to a nursing home where some fifteen wheelchairs were rolled in for a church service -- all women except for one man. Afterwards I teased the women at the desk about the wheelchair church being virtually all women with, “Will there be more women in heaven than men?” They responded with, “The men are already there.” To which I said, Maybe. Then I made the point that it is presumed that all one needs to do to go to heaven is to die!

  One of the few men here said to me at lunch one day, “Well, there’s something wrong with all of us or we wouldn’t be here.” That set me to thinking about why we are here. Yes, Ouida is ill, but what is wrong with me? If I’m the second oldest, that must be reason enough, but I’m tempted to question the girl at the desk, Are you sure I’m older than all these folk except one?!

  I spend several hours a day at the old place, disposing of our “junk” and sprucing up the place. We intend to have it for sale by month’s end. I go up and down ladders mending cracks and painting -- and sometimes a high ladder since the place has high ceilings. But I admit that after being on my knees for sometime painting baseboard, I find it difficult to get back up. At that moment I do feel like the second oldest!

  As for recent events, on June 3 I addressed the Garden Ridge Church of Christ in nearby Lewisville on living in hope in a troubled world. When a kind brother offered to help me negotiate the steps up to the pulpit, I admitted to the congregation that I am “going on 89.” They applauded. When I told them that Ouida, who was with me, and I recently celebrated our 63rd, they applauded again. When I closed by telling them that when I leave planet earth I will not be leaving home but going home, they then gave me a standing ovation.

  When Ouida said afterwards that she had never before seen a congregation give a preacher a standing ovation after a Sunday morning sermon, I told her I thought it was because I got up and down the ladder without falling!

  I have been in close touch with Cecil Hook for many years. He was a dear and trusted friend. He won my heart with his essay on “The Lamentations of a Mediocre Preacher.” I invited him to write for my own journal, which he did for sometime, and always seminal material. During his recent fatal illness I called him several times. We talked about hope. When it was evident that he was near death and too weak to talk without great effort, I told him I wouldn‘t burden him further.

  But I have one last question, I told him. What do you expect? His last words to me were, “I expect to be glorified.”

  I had planned to visit Cecil when I was in Austin last weekend, but he had “gone up higher” a few days before. I will tell you about the exciting time Ouida and I had in the state’s capital in my next.