MY SEARCH FOR DYNAMIC REALITY
by PAT BOONE

Listen to a man who has been an outspoken Christian for 22 years, but who has just come to really know Jesus. You may ask, “How is this possible?” Let me ask you something. “Have you ever stayed in a Hilton hotel? Then you were the guest of Conrad Hilton. But have you ever met your host, Mr. Hilton himself?”

Dale Evans Rogers puts it so well when she says, “I knew Jesus as my Saviour many years ago, but only recently did I come to know Jesus as Lord of my life.”

For 21 years I was a guest in the house of Jesus. I knew the security and sense of well-being that comes when you know, intellectually and emotionally, that you are saved and an “heir to the promises.” But not until a year ago did I actually meet and come to know my landlord Himself, Jesus of Nazareth.

Until that time I was more or less a typical Christian; the kind that is determined to be good, no matter how miserable it makes him! I was the product of a fine Christian home, a student of the Bible, a songleader and Sunday School teacher. I preached occasionally and wrote a couple of books for young people, in addition to attempting to project a Christian image in. my career as an entertainer.

In most ways I was pretty good. And it is not accurate ro refer to myself as “miserable.” There were high points: times when I knew God had blessed and used me; times when I was so grateful for the knowledge that I was truly a Christian; times, as in my books and youth rallies, when I experienced the joy of being able ro communicate to others the blessings of living in the Lord’s Body, His Church. I had obeyed His commands about repentance, confession, and baptism. But something big was missing!

There were too many vacant spots in my life, too many unanswered questions, too little joy. I had no real power, my Christian life was too much effort, and the high points too few and far between. Witnessing was an embarrassing affair, especially among my show-business friends, and I felt a need to prove that I was no “square,” that I could fit right in anywhere, between my Church World and my Career World!

I know now that this was the real heart of the problem. I was more concerned about what the public, the industry, and my church brethren expected of me than I was about what my Lord expected of me! I hoped that, if I could somehow work out a compromise between church acceptance and public acceptance, maybe Jesus would accept me, too.

But my compromise didn’t work! Jesus said, “Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all of these things will be added unto you.” He also said, “You cannot serve God and mammon.”

After several years of compromise, half-hearted occasional obedience, wavering faith, some grievous mistakes, and a growing awareness of separation from my Heavenly Father, I finally found myself on my knees, begging God to take over my life completely, to become my Lord, to give me the peace, the joy, the power that Jesus had promised those who would truly seek Him. All glory and praise to God, the Father, for He did! Jesus still means today, in the 20th century, just what He said so long ago, “If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more will your Heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask Him?” (Lk. 11:13)

Through all of my Christian life I had virtually ignored the Holy Spirit. As my wonderful wife, Shirley, puts it, “I have known God the Father, and God the Son, but not God the Holy Spirit.” And yet, Jesus Himself said that He must go away in order that He, the Holy Spirit, the Teacher, the Comforter, could come! Not It, but He, God’s own Spirit, not bound by human body or legal bonds or finite understanding, but like the wind that Jesus described to Nicodemus, the wind that “bloweth where it will!” Who can contain the wind? Who can understand it? Who can categorize or legalize or limit or deny or judge the Wind, the Spirit of Almighty God? And Jesus said, “So is everyone that is born of the Spirit.” (John 3:8)

In my search for this dynamic reality, for answers to my urgent needs, for a real, vibrant relationship with Jesus, I studied with several Spirit-filled men whose daily lives radiated joy, power and love. Among these were David Wilkerson, Ralph Wilkerson, George Otis, and Harold Bredesen. It is impossible to be around these men and to deny that God is in their lives, leading, shielding, blessing and using them in mighty ways. Each of them had known the emptiness of dedicated, but human, Christian service; and now each of them vibrated with truth, power, energy and love, the fruits of the Holy Spirit! (Gal. 5:22)

I began to see that my life had been like a black-and-white TV, while these men were living and serving God in glorious color, radiating the beauty of the Holy Spirit! It was a whole new dimension, and I wanted it! I wanted everything that God had for me! I was tired of trying to “do it myself!”

After studying one evening with George Otis in the quiet of his home, we agreed to ask Jesus to baptize me in His Spirit (Mt. 3:11). As I began to speak softly, hesitantly, in the new language that He was giving me, George suddenly suggested that I sing my praise to the Lord, with the help of the Holy Spirit. I yielded my voice and heard myself singing a thrilling new song, the words and the melody composed spontaneously by God’s Spirit! How can I possibly describe the joy of that hour? How can mere human words convey the soul-cleansing thrill of communicating so intimately with Jehovah God, “His Spirit bearing witness with our Spirit, that we are the children of God!” (Rom. 8:16)

All I know is that I was praising God, loving God, thanking God, and worshipping God, completely free of the restrictions and limitations of my finite mind. I knew what I was feeling, and God knew what I was feeling, so what need was there to self-consciously struggle to put my feelings into English words? The Holy Spirit was taking care of the vocal part of it, just as God promised He would! (Rom. 8:26)

But the best part of my new walk with the Holy Spirit is not just the prayer language, which is rich and meaningful and so precious, but the complete knowledge that every word God has spoken is true and that we can trust Him implicitly to keep His every promise today. We don’t have to fear that the Holy Spirit will lead us into doctrinal error: how could God’s Spirit contradict Himself? He will help us to understand God’s Word, to love it, and to cherish and trust it. It doesn’t seem 2,000 years old. It reads like today’s newspaper!

Before receiving the Holy Spirit I might have gone a year without converting a single soul. Since receiving the Spirit scarcely a week goes by without our touching someone’s life for Jesus, and one week recently there were five baptisms in our swimming pool in Beverly Hills! Our four daughters, Cherry, Lindy, Debby and Laury, have a growing Bible study on Friday afternoons with their school friends. Several nights a week find us in Bible study and prayer sessions with others in our home. But we aren’t doing it, for it is the Lord who assembles us together as we have need. Others see that we have been with Jesus and they want Him. We are living in color now, with power and peace in our lives that does “surpass understanding!”

Truly I praise the Lord Most High, and as King David declared in Psalm 100, I will “enter into His gates with thanksgiving, and into His courts with praise: be thankful unto Him, and bless His Name!”

(This article is published with the permission of Bible Voice, Inc. and Creation House, co-publishers of Pat Boone’s biography, A New Song.—Ed.)